There is a stone here in the graveyard upon which
these words are carved: “We were once just as you are now, you will
become as we are now.” How is that? The fact is: everyone passes on.
Impermanence is swift. No matter how blessed you may feel in your
present circumstances, how easygoing, how secure and pleased you are:
you cannot hang on to that world. It will be jerked out from under you.
Impermanence is swift. The lining of your present life is death. The
problem of life and death is no one else’s problem. It is yours to deal
And than there are the many desires. You can’t get what
you what, it never seems quite right, never enough. Dissatisfaction and
frustration seem to surface. There are so very many people who worry
about what would seem to be no problem at all. Liberation from
suffering. The more you know of this world, the more you see it to be a
giant exhibition of suffering. Everywhere you look, you see plenty of
examples of misery.
What about you? Have you no pain, no
suffering, no worries, no fears? If you honestly think: “Hey, not me. I
can meet it as it comes, go with the flow, I am not afraid, I can always
be at peace,” than you are fooling yourself, giving yourself license,
seeing yourself for what you are not. You are caught up in a
self-notion, clinging to an ego-idea. And lost in that self you cannot
hear the cry or see the tears of others. If you can overlook those
tears, you are not a person of great peace of mind.
The depth of
Truth is bottomless. Your interconnection is bottomless. A single grass
in the field is perfect Buddha. How utterly one are all things. The
grasses, the trees, the great earth, the great sky, all being is born in
relation to all things. This is the true self, the perfect self. No
matter what: all is goodness. However, because of deluded perception
beings fail to realize their inherent Buddha-nature. Truth is universal
and complete. Can you receive and embrace thoroughly this one truth?
There is something urging you to look deeper, something which seeks to
be known: don’t you see it yet? Isn’t it clear yet? You are sitting here
because you cannot help but seek truth. The genuine seeks to know
itself. Truth is seeking truth. That is why you are here, putting heart
and mind into meditation. Your time of awakening will come. No one is
hopeless. Life is not mean. No one is left out. There is no one who is
more or less Buddha than any other. True nature is never lost, never
hidden from you. It only seems that you have to go looking for it.
But you have long lifetimes of fooling yourself, protecting your
self-cherishing. When you have come to life again, to awakening, it will
be so clear that there is no “self” and other.” There is no opposition,
just this one reality. What appears as opposition is simply the result
of the self-centered view, which is of course the incorrect view. This
bad habit and wrong view causes untold suffering, for yourself and for
others. And you will continue to create suffering as you go on living in
falsehood. You will continue to experience suffering, fear, a sense of
lacking, and you’re not helping anybody.
What you think you are,
who you think yourself to be is so entirely mistaken. Grasping “self”
you obviously fail to see who you really are. You try to hold what
cannot possibly be held, for where is there anything fixed? Change is
swift. Because you try to hold on you feel so much anxiety, it’s
inevitable. How could you know true satisfaction? Dissatisfied you look
restlessly out here, out there. Your base-camp is “I, me, mine.” You
grasp it, you seek to rely on it. You are relying upon a phantom. You
grasp this phantom-self and ceaselessly try to satisfy it. What lengths
do we go through to gratify the self. We get what we want for a time and
then we lose it, up, down, up and down. We try to rely on our clever
thinking. How could there be any true peace of mind? How could you even
begin to give to the great universe as you receive? Your compassion
could only remain half-baked, locked as you are in “I, me, mine.” You
are doing your practice because you have determined to receive life as
it is, to come home to Life. You will meet with true self.
We human beings rely on our discriminating intellect. How arrogant we
are. “This is mine, this is what I deserve, credit should come here,
this is the way it should be.” We compare in contrast and in so doing we
shrink our world so small. We get so down on ourselves. We feel so very
sorry for ourselves. And, by turn, we are so proud of ourselves. We
wonder why the world doesn’t turn as we think it should. We become so
dark and down and than we joke to cover our insecurities. Lost in self
we can’t help wondering “where is the value of this, what am I doing
this for?” We wonder if there is any meaning in what we are doing. What
about you? Are you clear, crystal-clear, about what you are doing? What
are you living for? Birth, aging, illness and death come quick. Your
world as you know it is pulled out from under you in a flash.
seems no time ago at all that I first met my teacher Daiun Roshi for
the first time. I could only judge the world by my own hard held
beliefs. We have to break through this, to see the beauty. And here,
some fifty-five years have flashed by. Now, here. All the universe is
embraced in the One. I can assure you that all is well. All eternity is
now, here. Bold, clear, dignified. Now, here, so vivid, so alive, filled
with joy, waiting for you to see it. “I will do whatever I can to
benefit another.” This is just life as it is, naturally.
please see it: everything is alive. Great, great Alive. This is the
happiness of all happiness. And this “now here” can never be destroyed.
The light of your eternal life is shining brightly, now. What joy there
is in this radiance. Please, take care of yourself, your shining
Buddha-self. Become ever more able to appreciate your Buddha-self. That
is not to say be arrogant. There is nowhere anyone to feel small, no one
to be made small, no one to feel superior, no one toward whom you could
feel superior. So who are you to feel vain and proud when your very
source is all being? You are supported, you are nurtured, you are
guarded by all being. Thanks to all being, together, one, is all the
universe. This breath is breathed, so close, always one, always
together. Please never forsake the limitless treasure which is you
yourself. Be in touch, simply do not look away. Grasp nothing, hold
nothing. There is just now, here, fresh, new, alive. Now. Just do you
practice with all good grace.